maybe i'm being a bit hard on myself, too, but i just don't feel like i'm making much progress over the last few weeks. i tend to put the dogs on a leash tied around my waist, and although they don't really pull me much once we get going (the first 5 or 10 minutes are a bit of a struggle, as the three of us jockey for positions and figure out who is going to run where, without the leash wrapping around any one participant's feet... ) i feel like i just lope along at my comfortable 10 minute-mile pace and never really push myself. i don't have a reason to push myself.
sometimes we just need more of a reason to push ourselves and yesterday that's what i got. i was talking with the clinic manager because she is trying to start a walking program with a friend of hers, and i realized that if a person has someone else depending on them to get out and reach a certain goal, one is more likely to be motivated and push oneself when necessary to attain that goal.
so i signed up with Ian Torrence, who is an amazing ultra-runner and will be doing online coaching for me. how did i choose to go with Ian and not one of the other ultra-coaches that i know? i've met him several times over the years at races and always found him to be easy to talk with. i enjoy reading his blog and find he has always had a very down to earth outlook on running and from what i gather from life in general. he also has a cool dog.
when i saw the rates on his coaching webpage, my heart was in my throat. i thought to myself, "am i really worth spending that much money on myself?" and i immediately answered my own question. yes: i'm worth it. i've been a "pretty good" athlete all of my life. my friends and family probably have more confidence in my abilities than i have in myself. i feel like at any one time i could get up and do whatever activity i wanted to, without too much of a struggle ~ activities that many other people would never even dream of doing.
so the goal is that after three months of coaching from Ian, i will be pushed, and i will see progress. i'm sure it's going to be an experience full of personal growth, both physically and mentally. i'm really pretty psyched about it.
photos today are from my 6 mile run with the dogs, in our window of good weather today (in-between thunderstorms) and the quarter horses who like to greet us and race us along our route. the weather was really challenging this week (ie: rainy, yesterday with lightening) and i did not reach my mileage goal for the week because of it. i'm really looking forward to the three day weekend and the nice weather that is in the forecast.