Tuesday, September 21, 2010
then i kind-of freaked out just a little bit. just a mini-Missy-freak-out (as opposed to the major-Missy-freak-out, which a few of my friends have be not so fortunate to witness). what was i going to do the whole summer without a job?
well, i had signed up for the Wasatch 100, so i started running. a lot. i've always been somewhat of a runner. in high school on the soccer and tennis teams, we used to have to go out and do a 4 mile run around the county block. the other girls hated it. i reveled in those runs.
i have never run so many miles in a summer. i have never had so much joy in running. i ran with friends and ran with my dogs, and even did a few solo runs. then the big day came and i ran my race--conservatively, so that i would finish. but i didn't finish. i failed. i felt so frustrated. i quit because of injury about two-thirds of the way through the race. just when i was starting to feel lifted up, and so supported by my friends i might add, i failed. i felt so low. i felt as though i just wanted to sit on the couch and cry (and i did). my knee hurt, my hip hurt, my lower back hurt. and all i wanted to do was run.
so after 12 days of moping around on the couch and doing little 2 mile dog walks, i got out again today. i got out for 8 miles. my hip still hurt, my knee was stiff, and i was wearing a brace on my lower back for support. i mostly hiked, but i got out. i didn't quit.
when i got home, the phone rang. it was the hospital in rural Nevada where i applied for a job a couple of weeks ago. a 13-week contract in the clinic with shifts in the ER as a Nurse Practitioner. my heart soared. i have a job!
then i got an email. from my friend at the Student Health Clinic where i have been picking up shifts as a Nurse Practitioner as needed, when others are on vacation or need the day off. see, i had picked up a shift on a Friday in October, the same Friday as another 100-mile race, the race that would be my redemption. she said she figured out a way to give me the day off... go run, she said.
so i'm working on getting my hip and back and knee figured out. i have about three and a half weeks to do it. then, it's Pony Express 100 day.