|Nurse Franklin looking after me.|
By the time I got to the last couple of patients of the day, I couldn't even sit on the rolling exam stool in the exam rooms. A couple of patients asked me if I was ok. My nurse and medical assistant also asked if I was ok, as I had taken on quite a green hue in my face, I am quite sure because of the amount of pain I was in. I was not ok, but I smiled and told my patients I would be fine. I got a prescription for a muscle relaxant from a coworker and could barely stand at the pharmacy counter to pick it up.
What a mess I have become. I don't remember ever being in this much pain, except for when I had my ACL surgery 5 years ago. I wonder what has happened to my connective tissue and why it is all of a sudden turning into steel cable.
|First day of Spring.|
I remember about 14 years ago when I was working as a ski instructor and I had taken an awful fall. A day or so later, I was complaining about how stiff I was and that I wasn't bouncing back like I used to (I was about 26 at the time). All of the other instructors just looked at me and smirked, "Just wait a few more years. It only gets worse."
And they were right. I mustered the strength to take the dogs for a 30 minute walk today. I felt as if I was barely shuffling along in the park. I kept the dogs off-leash, because I didn't want them to yank me and disturb my already irritable back. The consequence was that they both decided to go swimming with the ducks in the pond. I didn't have the heart or the energy to yell at them to leave the ducks alone (no ducks were harmed).
Oh, gosh. I just want to feel better. I missed arguably the best powder day of the year this year and couldn't go skiing. It's hard for me not to feel a bit sorry for myself. Hopefully if I rest the next few days, I will be able to fully partake in the volunteering that I am signed up for at the 50- and 100-mile events out at Antelope Island this weekend. I really want to be able to enjoy it and not be in a lot of pain out there, or have to go home early. I was actually hoping to get a short run in while I was there.